It is my personal belief that we are never truly content with what we have. We, as humans, are always searching for what's better, what's next. There's a never ending struggle to be happy with what you already possess, and not what you could obtain. You have a job; you're always on the hunt for a raise or promotion. You have a lover; you're always thinking up ways of progressing (moving in together, marriage, children). You have a life; there's always that little voice in the back of your head asking, "How can I make things better?".

I'm tired of that voice. I'm so unbelievably sick and tired of moving on and finding what's next in life. I want to be content with what I have, and be happy with it. Not just by telling myself that I'm happy, but by really and truly feeling that way. I have a job, I have friends, and I'm young and attractive. I possess certain skills and qualities that one would be proud to have. I recognize and appreciate those things. I think part of the problem at hand is that we always forget to be appreciative.

There are days when a simple smile from a stranger walking down the street makes me feel completely fulfilled. Or when I sip a hot cup of coffee and stop to think for a moment, "Things are really okay..". I get a taste of what it feels like to be totally at ease...
and then my dreams get in the way.